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     LtCmdr Maiko D'rall |
It had taken Maiko a while before she felt safe calling up this particular holoprogram given what had happened the last time she was here. The lure of the hike and open spaces was too irrestistable though. This time though, she stayed out of the lake. Her goal this time was to improve upon her skills with the stave, though she felt a little silly even bothering. You could fight the Pfhor with a stave, but it was hardly of any use against most of the enemies they faced now, if not all. Still, it kept her busy in her off time, and had also led her to discover things about herself. Like the fact that meditation really did help oneself mentally. Of course, emptying one's head of thoughts wasn't the easiest things to do. She'd opted for her own methods - lying flat on her back, looking up at the sky overhead, and just letting her mind wander. Sometimes it calmed her down. Sometimes it helped her remember things she hadn't realized she'd forgotten. Today, it was the change in her life that occupied the most of her thoughts. It was wierd - but in a good way - to undergo such a dramatic change in one's life, she had decided. Certainly the physical change - another person in one's quarters, having to wait a few minutes for the bathroom in the morning, - was refreshing. Having Zachery around most of the time now was enjoyable - being able to talk to someone else, enjoying each other's company... But still, everyone needed a little time alone, even if only to maintain a sense of one's identity as a person and not part of a team. She was sure Zach didn't mind - after all, it would give him time to come up with new recipes in relative secret to surprise people with. Besides, the mission ahead would be rough. In a few days, they could wind up without holodecks and only each other for comfort. Best to do what could be done now rather than not relax as much as possible before all hell would break loose. Then again, who knew what lay in future for them? 'Well,' she scowled at that thought, 'that might not necessarily be true.' Sometimes it seemed everyone was convinced the future was etched in stone. Some claimed to have seen it, at least in the Milky Way. Doomed. Ridiculous. The future - or for that matter, the past - clearly can't be fixed to some single track. Aside from other dimensions, other planes of existence - and Great Bird, whatever else lay out there - there were clearly other times. Other events. She had been witness to the birth of at least one that she knew of, possibly more. The future of anyone could not be written up to destiny as in pre-written. Perhaps destiny based on a person's motivations and behaviors - such as Tal probably never actually settling down with a husband as she had. But to the point where one could say with one hundred percent confidence that something would happen? Even what she remembered of her science cources in school back on Reor, of the scientific principles, the concepts and importance of having a control group... Well, maybe that wasn't the best example she could think of, unless the control group went awry. That still left a nagging thought... could there be, in all of existence, some universe, some chain of events, that *would* be fixed in such a manner that it was predictable to the extreme... simply because it was the yardstick for everything else? 'Maybe meditation isn't such a good idea...' |