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     Lt. SG Maiko D'rall |
Personal Log Maiko D'rall Stardate 240309.29 Twice now I've been nearly killed doing something I enjoy - or once depending on how you interpret the loops. While I'm relieved to no longer be repeating events ad nauseum, I'm instead worried. I am, undoubtedly, among the best pilots onboard Coronado; Rachel is rather close, and Kerman - well, his attitude doesn't cover up the fact that he has drastically improved his skill in the last few months. I'm sure the admiral could out-fly me though, as could Savant, and Tal is certainly no slouch, so I'm content to think of myself as among the top five pilots onboard. Lately it just seems like it's not good enough. I should have been keeping an eye on that sphere that hit us - should have known it was coming, yet I missed it completely, then didn't get out of the way when I should have realized that once we were hit, our consoles were as dangerous as jaguars. I know despite the risks in this operation I'm about to undergo that I will not be disappointed if I will never be able to walk again. I'd miss flying..." She paused, glancing up from the PADD she was manually keying the entry in on. Her hoverchair was parked in a quiet corner of sickbay out of anyone's immediate path while she waited for her time on the operating table. Inwardly she sighed, then resumed. "...but it's just that flying - my style of flying - doesn't seem well suited for Coronado. If I had ever crashed at home, I would have only been putting myself, some cargo or fertilizers, and maybe an innocent bystander on the ground at risk. I have to keep reminding myself that I don't have that luxury anymore. There are almost 500 people onboard, not to mention the fact that any damage I cause isn't as easy to fix as welding a duranium patch over a crack in the skin. The damage the sphere did, compounded by atmospheric damage - or the strut damage at Lh'owon - or the crashed shuttle in that one loop - and the holodeck program where I tried to save that starship saucer but killed hundreds - has made me realize that while I have the skill for solo flight, I have much to learn about starship flight. That in turn makes me wonder if I'm really all that suited to be a flight officer on Coronado. Hearny and my father - wherever he's disappeared to - I'm sure would disagree. I can almost hear Hearny saying something along the lines of 'damned fool if y'think you can fly and keep the welfare of everyone onboard in yer cramped head,' while I think father would simply comment on how I'm doing an excellent job as it is. Frankly I'm not so sure myself. It's one thing for the department head to rank how her staff is doing, but who ranks the department head? Commander Tal - who though I feel totally amused for, I can't imagine what she's going through. Probably not a good time to bug her with her chief helmswoman saying she's going through a crisis of her role onboard. 'I make her proud', but was she referring to my spirit or my work at the helm? It seems my life on Coronado involves bouncing from one question to another. I'd just like to find some of the answers before I get tossed into the next question." She committed the entry to her storage space in the computer, then cleared the PADD, putting it back on the empty biobed next to her. She didn't feel like writing about what had happened the last time she was under the scapel - the visions of her mother and spheres were bad enough, but more shaking was that she had thought she was awake in sickbay when in fact she was still unconscious - though that illusion had slowl broken up chaotically until she finally woke up. Her career would have to wait until later; for now, all she had to worry about was whether or not the operation would be a success... -- Beta Shift Helm Report -- (filed by Ens. Kerman) Helm remains grounded in Xanadu's second chamber with no change in operational status. We have secured from blue alert and watches have been set to keep the ship's landing profile balanced. The ship's shuttles are on ready-5 standby for crew who wish to utilize this opportunity to travel in Xanadu. Attached Document: Duty Roster - Flight Ops/Flight Bay REV MD03.2 [Please note: Crewmembers not listed are granted shore leave. If you leave the ship, please make sure the Operations officer on duty is informed of your destination and/or plans in case we need to reach you if shore leave is cut early. Those still listed on duty, please contact Lt. Stackpole regarding requests for leave.] DUTY ROSTER: Coronado Flight Operations Lt. SG Maiko D'rall - Medical Disability Leave Lt. JG Rachel Stackpole - Alpha Shift Ens. Harry Kerman - Beta Shift Ens. G'laro - Gamma Shift Ens. Edward Donegal - alert/relief officer DUTY ROSTER: Shuttle Flights (as needed) Ens. Brett Lorrah - Chief of Deck Operations Chief Petty Officer Wilbur Smith - Deck Officer Chief Petty Officer Carmen Ibanez - Flight Bay Integrity Team Petty Officer (3rd Class) Mel "Dizzy" Wheeler - Procurement Staff |