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     Olme Tlaloco |
I am wording these reports as communiquees to you, and I hope that it does not stray too far from proctocol to do so. Engineering is proceeding with repairs well ahead of schedule. We should be operating at 100% soon. Medbay reported psychological casualties as a result of the Beckman shift. The doctor is treating these now, and I reccommend that he be asked to investigate some way to prevent this raw fear the next time the station shifts. Scanners are irrelevant inside Xanadu, but the shuttles have gathered useful information,. We need to develop a way of keeping the shuttles tracked if we experience another translation. Savant is in need of repairs. Commander Oswald does not think our plan to use Paqui will succeed, but for the present, I see no alternative to restoring her datanbanks. Internal security was operational and performed well, considering many of our people are re-assigned to repairs while we complete repairs. Helm had run some simulations, I believe. I am really impressed with the people there. I need not recap the situation in science, since you yourself were right next to Dr. Dyson and know more than I. Generally, the morale of the crew - well, I'll be frank with you, sir. Even by my standards, the crew is undisciplined. I had the experience of dealing with the medical personnel, and I was shocked at Dr. Reed's bedside manner, which seems to have strained the working situation for Dr. Dyson. And now for a personal matter- I had a disturbing discussion with General Ironsides. I do not wish to e a problem for you- an issue. I'd rather be a resource. It seems that even General Ironsides, whom I respect deeply, cannot see past the Tlaloco who was the traitor, who took my life while I was in staisis. In my tenure as acting XO, I find that people are suspicious of me, and perhaps the disrespect I engender has to do with my own personality, but I think mostly it's because so many crew members can't see past the other Tlaloco, or don't believe that there was an infiltrator. In any case, I can handle that from those with whom I need to work as a manager. I cannot, however, operate without the trust of those to whom I have to answer. I am so grateful for the opportunity to act as exec, it's what I aspired to for many years, and I think I can be of great service in that position. When I was passed up time and again on the Enterprise, I really had to re-examine who I was as a starfleet officer. Maybe Ironsides is right. Maybe the fact that I am esentially an anachronism will never make me suitable for a position of such responsibiity. Maybe this is not the best time to try. My motiviation is to best serve the only ship in the fleet willing to give me a chance, and if that means staying at ops, or if that means moving up, so be it. If I could presume to be in your shoes right now, as much as it kills me to say it, I'd be looking to Commander Oswald as exec. She has the universal trust of command and crew, she runs the tightest department on the ship, and her promotion would leave Farley in charge of engineering, a post he has proved more than capable of handling with near-miraculous results. SHe'd make my life a living hell, of course, but I think I'm the only one she bristles against, which leads me to believe the problem might be me. I also don't want to pry into your personal affairs, but I think the death of Commander Smith has impacted you deeply. I think life has a way of wearing us all down, especially in matters of the heart. The universe is a huge place, full of infinite possibility, and death is just another step in the process. Commander Smith opted out along this line, but I know how many divergent paths there are, and perhaps there is some consolation in the fact that he might also exist, with very different possibilites in an alternate universe, and that we may yet see him happier and again. Maybe next year in the Alpha Quadrant. I think it's important to focus on that mantra- Like the Jews of old used to say "Next year in Israel", we should say "Next year in the Alpha Quadrant". I think so much of what I'm seeing is the relinquishing of hope. You will bring us home. I have seen you at your best moments and I believe you will. In Rain and War, |